I sit here now reflective of how much support I’ve received over the years. To be writing in WordPress, on a laptop, to understand HTML, how web servers work, humbling. It’s easy to focus on one part of life, escaping the cosmic picture.
Self Focus. Building networks is/are great. It helps. It enables other to help themselves in the same way that I have been taught and continue to learn off others. We do not do this alone.
There’s lots I could have, should have linked to over this time, but I’ve been too busy—Self Occupied. I pushed away current events to focus on the bigger picture of helping others. Easy to say to take a leaf out of my own book.
The realization’s been coming for a while, a root canal broke through. Awoken me to human existence, interconnectedness, and the not need or fascination, but the reality of sharing.
The gaps of silence have been a learning period. Sometimes there is too much of silence—it has a place, but only to some end. Impossible is just a word. There is huge inequality and suffering in the world, I believe we are working on this. The internet plays a role, as have all the forms of infrastructure and communication networks before it. I look to a happy world, and a bright future.
I understand that I must look after myself, but also to not self-isolate. Playing hero isn’t hero at all, it’s a little silly, and potentially life risking.
I’m not thinking reinvention, that’d be running away. The ecosystem of life, our balance and relation that’s where I’m coming from/to. No agile touch, management speak. Meditation helps me, as does Yoga.
We all have specializations and skills. We all have experiences and life stories to learn from each other. To be closed it to reduce the world.
A stake in time. A slower pace of life. What’s really important is not Class A networks aka 16,777,216 host nodes. They are needed, but what’s more important is water, food, shelter, health, and for things like Internets, Electricity.
All resources end. I feel my goal/our goal is to be here, understand we are fortunate and from here be ourselves. The future in this regard isn’t magical, it’s always from now. It is exciting to be alive, the online/offline world has changed, in my eyes, so much over the past few years. 3D Movies couldn’t have existed. Technology. It’s a story, talking about our lives and emotions, which is the purpose…a journey. To allow us, to reflect and pause.
In this way, open-ness is a form of creation. Web, Social, Art, Music work for me. We all have our things. I’ve been putting mine off and away. Time to live, time to be. I feel/find the lessons of my life are powerful in the moment, but often only later do I understand what it is that I’ve actually learnt, but then what? Right?
I’m humbled to be alive in 2010, thankful to have had so many amazing experiences, and am looking forward to wholly entering and experiencing many more to come.